I’m seriously considering going home and sleeping the afternoon away. But I have an appointment this afternoon so I’ll probably just tough it out. I’m not sure why I’m so tired anyway. I got enough sleep on Saturday night. I got enough sleep last night. *shrugs* I hate my energy levels.
I went to Heather & Andy’s wedding this weekend. It is so nice to see them so happy. I’m very happy for her. I was surprised, the wedding itself didn’t get to me…but the reception did. I think it was a combination of reminders of my wedding and reminders that I’m not really a part of the Broken Bow life anymore. Letting go and moving on has never been my strong suit. I’m all for change. I love new things…I just don’t like letting go of the old.
I guess Curtis officially is to the point I was at a week ago. He just wants to be here. He wants to be with me. He doesn’t want to be separated by 5 hours. That feels good. I feel much better about life. I was so scared there was something shady going on…but that fear is gone now. I really am not sure what part of the weekend made it go away, but it is gone and I’m at peace.
I had a dream this morning (in between snoozing the alarm) that he just showed up to live at my house. That he couldn’t handle being apart anymore and just showed up. Kinda made me chuckle when I woke up.
The kids met him this weekend. They seemed to really like him. Bailey requested to sit by him at the reception and Michael requested to sit by him at lunch on Sunday before we left. I was very surprised by Michael’s request because Grandma was there and usually both the kids want to sit by her.
